First of all I'd like to say how grateful I am to have made it home right now. Turns out the down pour of rain in Los Angeles is not over with as I thought it was. Today I decided to take a walk and see where it would lead me with no plan set in mind. I arrived at the coffee shop by my house which I love and is a local la fave of mine for amazing food and baked goods. With my journal in tow I sat there and stared out the window at the clouds in the sky looming over what is normally a very sunny place. It has not been for the past week or so and I have totally been okay with it as I draw inspiration from it. I draw inspiration from the change it brings that is, which reminds me yet again that the only thing certain is change. I received an email yesterday from my best friend proclaiming hey stranger and suggesting I must be thrilled with the weather. I am thrilled with the weather and I apologize to all my friends for my lack of contact. It is not intentional by any means I am simply exhausted but grateful for the reasons why. Let me explain.
As many of you know by now I am part of a team of five people who are donating six months of our lives to produce a fundraiser and train volunteers to make the 2010 UNICEF Tap Project
, which provides children in underdeveloped countries clean water, a success. Being on this journey has brought back memories of one I took not too long ago and which prompted my way of living with awareness. Mind you I was always a risk taker but I just didn't always have the awareness I do now. All of us were assigned to be head of something based on our expertise and past experience with non-profits although all decisions are made as a team. I was assigned as head of the fundraiser which allowed me to open up my contact book and get to work with one sole intent in mind the entire time, getting those children clean water. The ones I long to meet face to face one day when my journey with UNICEF takes me in that direction but for now I am exactly where the universe needs me doing exactly what they need me to do.
Back in 2007 I was also exactly where I needed to be doing exactly what I needed to be doing. Touring with my play and donating the proceeds to a different non-profit art related organization in each city. The simplest way to answer people's constant question then, "don't you need to make money before giving it away?", is to say "don't I need to risk and get lost in the unknown in order to know faith?" It was in the end what my gut and soul where asking me to do. What I was living was showing me the way and quite frankly this you could only understand by being me and walking in my shoes. So bottom line was I had to continue to go to where my heart was leading even if the road got bumpy, dark, and felt isolating and as if I were lost. Doing so taught me something I will always take with me, God is my compass and through the universe it/she/he/ewa/nothingness communicates with me through signs and where it leads I will gladly follow. Life is too short and too uncertain for me to do otherwise. This is a short video recapping the tour of The Art of Being.
Thanks to that experience my contact book grew tremendously prompting people to question how did I do it? Get not only in touch with the heads of major corporations and get a response but also have companies like Southwest Airlines enable my work by donating airline tickets. Or companies like Amoeba Music donate funds so I could continue my work. The list of those who have joined me on my journey and supported my vision truly is endless and continues to grow but the answer is simple. I am simply the vessel for work that needs to get done and the universe always knows when something is genuine. That has been shown to me in many ways over and over. Like I told Shari, "you can cheat others, you can cheat yourself but you can't cheat the universe, it knows." Which is why these doors I knocked on were opened to me. The intent behind the knock has never been to solely to serve me or get the world to love me and see how great I am. I love myself and I know nothing absolutely nothing that comes from outside of me could make me feel worthy. It is always and will always be about the work. And while some of you may be tired of my knock, you know who you are, I hope that it is my passion for the mission that allows you to understand why I can't stop knocking. ;-)
However for me things have not been tremendously easy. They've always had a flow to them which allowed to see I was being led but there has always been a hurdle or a bumpy road. While I am of the belief that life is what you believe it is, life has also taught me that life happens on its terms and while we may want to believe we control outcomes we most certainly do not and that is the lesson I am faced with accepting once again. I have tried every avenue possible to ensure our fundraiser a headliner which will ensure us ticket sales which will then allow us to have money for UNICEF to distribute to the four countries receiving it this year via clean water. The intent is clean water for children in underdeveloped countries. It's that simple.
My efforts in return received an amazing venue willing to let us use it free of charge, amazing talent who immediately said yes, and donors who have in one way or another donated something that allows this project to have a voice and reach audiences to create awareness of what a truly big problem this is. Just because it isn't here it doesn't mean it isn't happening or can't happen here. To see what I mean take a look at my proudest commercial ever. One I received no pay for but one that allows me to be here today typing this as it led to me becoming an honorary Ambassador for UNICEF and then a Tap Project City Coordinator.
So this week as I faced a looming extended deadline to attach a headliner I tried everything within my power to have one by today. I do not but here is where my journey becomes magical. Last night I cried and cried. They were tears of surrender and accepting God's will and knowing that once again as usual I could not control the outcome and I could force no one to headline all I could do was work hard which I had done. I was accepting yet again the beauty of life on life's terms. I have been here before many times and I have proven repeatedly that a devastating no always leads way to a AMAZING YES! It just never is on my time or deadlines it's always on God's time. As the old saying goes, "If you want to make God laugh tell em your plans." It's laughing that's for sure. ;-)
Last night as I cried and watched Elizabeth the Golden Age for the second time this week a magical moment happened. Just as the storm she faces in the film while she awaits the Spanish Armada ships to arrive in England and destroy it the winds current takes a change as it did outside my door just at the exact same moment. I opened the door to find thunder and lighting giving the usual sunny LA skies a different shape and color. I smiled at the universe as the clouds above passed through changed colors and reaffirmed yet again that I am not alone, being guided and change is coming. Yes once again the winds of change are upon me, my colleagues, and the children that brought us together.
I have been brought here to be of service to UNICEF as have my colleagues and we will forge ahead like warriors and get our headliner always knowing when to let go and let God. This would be a good time to thank them for their patience with my constant phrase at all our meetings, "the universe will conspire." I know it's probably hard to believe that now and a lot is at risk right now but as I've learned these past four years, the bigger the risk the bigger the reward. After all faith isn't something you have when everything is going well, faith is something you need when all appears to not be going they way you intended. Key word appears because as Emerson has said, "All I have seen teaches me to trust the creator for all I have not seen." We aren't alone in this fight. With headquarters permission, tbd, we will move forward on God's time and get our headliner and your support at our fundraiser on March 25, 2010 at The Conga Room
at Downtown Live in LA. Yes my dear lovely colleagues: Nina, Ruby, Justin, and Sarah once again I say to you THE UNIVERSE WILL CONSPIRE. How, when, and where only time will tell. As I await our next step I find solace in this stunning song.
The most commonly asked question is why I am doing this free of charge during this economy? Followed by "it's too risky." I wish I had an answer full of wisdom but the truth is I like nature am simply being. I hope you are too and that your love for yourself, life and others grows more everyday not in spite of adversity but because of adversity allowing you to trust that like anything in life that is worth it you are too! Trust the journey and I know you will find your inner warrior. I now "against all odds" will continue to go to extraordinary measures with God and the universe guiding and lighting my way to ensure these children with names, hopes, and dreams just like you and me a chance at making them come true by giving their bodies its basic human right, clean water. I leave you with this question to ponder, "If we aren't here for each other than what are we here for exactly?"
Friday, January 22, 2010
Tuesday, January 19, 2010
Silvia Narratone, the gift being present in the moment allowed me to receive.
As I was leaving the premiere of my collaboration with Paulo Coelho and other international filmmakers, The Experimental Witch, in Rome I was stopped by a young woman. She asked me if she could interview me for her university dissertation. I said yes and gave her my card. I heard from her this week and below is what she wanted to know. I had to blog about it because I have done interviews for the past four years of my life and even when I was a "beauty queen" back home in Texas but have never faced a set of questions like this. It took me in another direction and allowed me to see how much I've grown in ways you sometimes can't see when you're just going going going. She made me think and pick up my dictionary. I am glad to be reminded that I don't know it all and can continue living and growing! Thank you Silvia for this amazing gift and for being a teacher to me through your questions. I hope you get the grade you deserve! With immense gratitude for our paths crossing! Adriana
Questions from Silvia Narratone
1)Why have you decided to participate in the competition and why have you chosen to adapt Samira’s point of view?
For me it was a following of the signs as Paulo writes about in his books and the fact that it was for something related to Paulo Coelho was an even bigger sign that this was exactly what I was supposed to be doing. My boyfriend had broken up with me two days before Valentines in 2008 telling me I was too humanitarian and that my beliefs about Life and God worried him. I went home to Austin and at the last minute took The Witch of Portobello from my nightstand. It had been sitting there waiting to be read and as they say timing is everything. I read it on the flight, while in Austin and upon my return to Los Angeles. The day after I had finished reading it and telling my mom I would be emailing Paulo to ask that they could read me for Athena if they ever turned it into a film since I had found tremendous solace in her because in a lot of ways I was her, I found out about the film competition. I signed up quickly, grabbed the book and choose the Samira chapters. Although as I shot the film I realized the chapters had chosen me.
2)To what extent are you a fan of Paulo Coelho?
I admire people's work and not the person unless I know them personally. One of my favorite quotes ever is "reward the mission not the man" from Eliizabeth the Golden Age. The only people I admire are people close to me whose character I know first hand. I try to apply this to every situation in which I am faced with admiring someone's work because everyone is human and I think it is dangerous territory to think otherwise, to idolize them. My experience in the entertainment industry for the past fourteen years has allowed me the privilege of learning this first hand, which allows me to be a complete fan of his writing. He truly is a talented writer who inspires people to be individuals and follow their dreams and because that is what I believe in life of course I am a fan of work that makes me feel connected and less alone. I have been reading his books since I was 21 and my ex boyfriend Sergio, who is still my friend, recommended The Alchemist. So in a way I have Sergio to thank for all this.
3)Do you know if P. Coelho has structured his novel in that particular way (with many well-separated points of view) because he wanted to develop the Experimental Witch later?
I don't believe so but that question can only be answered by the man himself. ;-)
4)Who worked on the script of the adaptation?
Myself and a cast member from my play The Art of Being, Kris Pustina Haldane. I had cast her in my play and knew of her talent for writing so I called her up, explained the project and told her we had a deadline. You see when I found out about the competition it was late in the game and I had three months to adapt, produce and become Athena. She agreed to join me on the journey which quite honestly was easy from the angle that the work we had to adapt had to stay as true as possible to the novel after all it was his original work that people were longing to see because of its ability to inspire. While we did make minor changes I did want it to be clear I wanted to stay as close as possible to what was already written. The changes I talk about happened because of where we were shooting and logistics. Adapting for me was where I grew tremendously as an artist for I had never done it before and I found it to be an amazing teacher of my capabilities.
5)What troubles have you coped with during the shooting?
Overall it was a great set! Everyone knew how important this shoot was to me because of the way it had come to be. I made it clear from the beginning that if I pushed hard for a particular vision it was because of how important this was to me. It was not just simply making a movie for the point of making a movie or getting noticed. I had national exposure with my play and it taught me that if you receive any notoriety or attention it is best used to open more doors to be able to continue to live your dream and help other live theirs by providing them with jobs.
Attention for the sake of attention has never made sense to me. So everyone was aware that this was a dream of mine coming true beyond what I ever expected and they respected that. I surrounded myself with people who love what they do and that made it easy too. My DP Neil Lisk is the kindest hardest working talented DP I've ever worked with and led the crew very well. The director and I at some points had different visions but again he respected where I was coming from and I respected his talent in an area of which I am not experienced in, film directing, so a compromise was always reached.
In the end I was fighting for a vision that allowed people to find comfort in their "flaws" and feel seen. My ex boyfriend saw what I consider to be my attributes as flaws and I know a lot of creative people feel pressure from people to be something else so this was a tribute to a woman, Athena, who refused to dishonor her true being by becoming what others wanted her to be. In the end my fight to capture that may have made it difficult to work with me but I certainly hope not. I am however aware that I am stubborn when it comes to trusting my gut. I listen to that before I listen to anyone else and if it happens to go line with what they suggest then it simply does and if it doesn't, it doesn't but again its about being authentic and true to my vision and work and knowing when to let go.
6)How many people did they work in your crew? Is it possible to know how much money you have invested (approximately)?
I spent a total of $7500 in filming and $2500 in post production and getting packages to Italy where the production is based. My crew consisted of 11 crew and 5 actors. I was unable to secure sponsorships so I out of pocketed the expenses. Dreams do come at a price and I always think it's important for people to know about the journey and not just see the destination, which in this case is the Rome Film Festival.
7)Does the fact that your adaptation is destined to be integrated into a mash-up movie influence the concept of your work itself?
Not at all. I honestly am not a person whose work is done with a certain set of rules affiliated with a film school or any format. I simply follow my heart and what feels right to me. This makes it a little hard for people who are very set in a way of doing things to work with me and visa versa but I always want to do that which I am passionate about and my gut tells me to.
8)To what extent do new technologies (and among those cinema digitalisation) allow you to experiment artistically? How do they make shooting easier?
This would honestly be a question for my DP as he handled all the equipment etc. Post Production, which I did handle, did not include any new technologies because of our budget. It was done in a very simple way and with the tools we were presented with.
9)You saw the final cut. Are you satisfied with the final version of the film destined to theatres?
I am! I feel like you can't really judge other people's work although I am in an industry that is all about judging. When I view people's work I am allowed a view into their mind and creativity. Sometimes I may not understand it but I always respect it because creativity expressed in any way is a person's own individual taste being exposed to the world. Had I done the final cut all you would have seen would be my version of the book. I felt that Elisabetta the producer did the book justice as best as she could with what she was given. Remember she had to take many people's visions put them together and have them represent the work of a well renowned author whose following expects a lot. It was very courageous of both Paulo and his production team and us the filmmakers to go there. I think we did a great job while exploring new territory and I hope our journey inspires more productions and collaborations like this one.
10) Do you think that Coelho’s audience will love the product? How will it understand it?
I can not speak for other people. I can only speak for myself. I have no idea what their taste is like but again I am in a very critical judgemental industry and I believe that if people knew more of what truly goes on behind the scenes, like my personal story to make the film happen, they may open their minds more and see with different eyes. However they are only seeing the final presentation and well like I said I can't speak for them. I do know first hand that all the filmmakers have amazing stories as to how their film came to be and their journey as they filmed and eventually won. So my only hope is that they see our work through the eyes of love and take what they'd like. As the old saying goes, "you can't judge someone until you've walked in their shoes", which if we took to heart it'd be easier to release judgement. ;-)
11)Do you think that the final mash-up film could be difficult to comprehend?
Absolutely if you aren't a fan of Paulo Coelho or read the book The Witch of Portobello. But would art really be art if it was always understood and if everything held an explanation how would we grow? We'd have nothing to question and be in awe of. So even if it's not undertstood it's making people's minds function and opening them up to thinking for themselves and opening their views on life. I strongly believe that is what his work does. I feel like he was destined to write in a way that just resonates so strongly with anyone inclined to follow THEIR heart and struggling with that concept.
12)What is your opinion on the increasing presence of artistic products on the Internet made both by users and local and international artists? What are the advantages and disadvantages of this condition? To what extent does the Internet help you to convey your works?
I used to not be a fan of technology like the internet at all because I used to think it was seperating us and making our communication dependant on texting, emails, etc. and I was so sad that I could get answers from people a lot easier by those formats than by actual personal contact or phone conversations. Lets not mention letters, which I still write and seal with wax. I could definitely forget snail mail it was becoming a thing of the past.
My opinion changed drastically in 2007 when I set out to do the tour of my play. I was dependent on the internet for everything from research to publicity. Let's not forget that my work won the Toyota Moving Forward Award from GLAMOUR magazine because of the internet so that was my first opening of the mind of how powerful the internet truly is. Of course all this was followed by finding out about Paulo's film competition through a newsletter from www.goodreads.com futher opening me up to how amazing technology truly is and when used with caution and respect it can create amazing scenarios. I hope Paulo's example of how filmmaking can be made is followed by others because it grants opportunities to people who don't live Hollywood or an industry town to have a dream come true.
For me overall as an independent producer who funds my productions through sponsorships I am very much in need of the internet. I have to research everything imaginable from who runs the sponsor or fund programs at companies, to directors, actors, music for the film/play, locations, permits, everything. I work pretty much on my own until it gets close to filming and everyone hired starts to work so let's just say the internet makes it a lot easier for me to live my dream. I hope more people realize the possibilities it holds. Even sites like Facebook and myspace expose me to artists which allows me to collaborate with them even if they are in another country as was the case with Birte Nordahl and some of the people who worked on The Experimental Witch were hired through Craigslist. Technology truly is amazing!
13)What socio-cultural visibility have indie productions got in your country?
This is a tough one to answer as I am just venturing into the realm of film as I had prior to this only done work producing theater or as a hired actor. This is one I am learning about right now. I honestly can say that in my experience I had never witnessed anything like what Paulo did with this competition. However I am certain there is a lot going on here that I am about to get involved in as I venture into producing my first feature film and become exposed to it.
14)Does The Experimental Witch foster your public image? To what extent?
It has most definitely opened doors for me but a lot of it has to do with awareness and my willingness to seize the opportunities, which I learned from my prior work and the opportunities it brought. I think if we get out of our own way when the universe steps in to guide us to dreams that exceed our expectations we truly have the opportunity to foster our work. For me it's about learning to decipher the difference between what I want and what the universe wants and has in store me. Most of all trusting in the wisdom of what I believe in, God and the universe.
Once I did that I was sent into a realm of endless possibilities where my life constantly teaches me in many scenarios what I am capable of so when the opportunity to produce my first film came I took on the challenge and ended up in Rome, being interviewed by Latin Star Magazine while being named by them the Latin Star to watch and now doing an interview with you because I stopped to talk to you at the premiere instead of rushing to the after party. If I am present in the moment I am open to its gifts. I also received a request from Fringe Report for an interview after Rome because they found me online. Most recently a film festival in the Netherlands found my work on the internet and requested it after learning about it from the Rome Film Festival.
So with awareness I am able to see more and more everyday that when you follow your passion doors open that you never even dreamt of and it keeps happening to me. I don't take it lightly and I work had with the opportunities granted to me to be able to give my work a voice in a saturated industry.
I am very grateful to Paulo for creating an idea that led me on an amazing journey and continues to do so. It most definitely continues to foster my career/work and that of others as I am about to produce my first feature film based on a story by Austin based writer John Rincon. All this is a trickle effect and when you work with others you foster your career and theirs and in my world only great things can come of that even on a challenging road to the destination but for me it's all about the journey.
15)What do you think about P. Coelho’s use of Twitter, MySpace and his blog? Do you think that for an artist it is best a peer-to-peer communication with his fans or to conceal himself in order to build a mistery aura which enhance curiosity?
I absolutely love it! I am a big believer that humanity is equality and like I said earlier, "reward the mission not the man" so to see people who have a high profile in the arts/entertainment reaching out to the people that put them there makes me very happy. After all this is what made the Experimental Witch possible and led to this interview. I see other artist like singer Jason Mraz do it as well and I can only hope that more people follow Paulo and Jason. For me inspiration to be creative comes from life and all it entails to be human so without a connection to your fellow beings it would be hard to see your ideas come to fruition because you can't draw inspiration out of thin air. Inspiration comes from LIVING life and its challenges. In the end we need eachother and reaching out in these types of formats facilitates art/entertainment. I commend Paulo, Jason, and anyone else doing it for leading the way.
16)How do you think the relationship between cinematic apparatus and new media will evolve?
Silvia as I am on your last question I have to commend you for truly making me think and giving me an opportunity to have a voice. Your questions are truly those of someone who put a lot of thought into it so thank you for being a great teacher to me today as I do this.
I hope that they grow and continue to expand working with eachother for the benefit of art/entertainment. Technology in filmmaking continues to grow tremendously because of people like James Cameron willing to follow their heart and go out a limb risking tremendous failure only to find himself revolutionizing cinema which had a lot to do with technology. A technology that now is being highly discussed in the media and can open up all of us in the industry to what is truly possible and to the idea that if we combine all our tools together we can create amazing things. Just like we need eachother to make things possible so does the current cinematic apparatus need from the new media to give exposure to the growth of our field. I am very happy to be alive in a day and age when people are truly working hard to make use of all we have been given from spiritual to technological to media because in my view of the world in the end they all go hand in hand and create endless possibilities that reach and touch people all over the world.
THE END! ;-) You can see the film I was talking about in this interview below. It is broken down into three parts and in case you didn't catch on it won Paulo Coelho's International Film Competition and is based on his novel The Witch of Portobello.
Questions from Silvia Narratone
1)Why have you decided to participate in the competition and why have you chosen to adapt Samira’s point of view?
For me it was a following of the signs as Paulo writes about in his books and the fact that it was for something related to Paulo Coelho was an even bigger sign that this was exactly what I was supposed to be doing. My boyfriend had broken up with me two days before Valentines in 2008 telling me I was too humanitarian and that my beliefs about Life and God worried him. I went home to Austin and at the last minute took The Witch of Portobello from my nightstand. It had been sitting there waiting to be read and as they say timing is everything. I read it on the flight, while in Austin and upon my return to Los Angeles. The day after I had finished reading it and telling my mom I would be emailing Paulo to ask that they could read me for Athena if they ever turned it into a film since I had found tremendous solace in her because in a lot of ways I was her, I found out about the film competition. I signed up quickly, grabbed the book and choose the Samira chapters. Although as I shot the film I realized the chapters had chosen me.
2)To what extent are you a fan of Paulo Coelho?
I admire people's work and not the person unless I know them personally. One of my favorite quotes ever is "reward the mission not the man" from Eliizabeth the Golden Age. The only people I admire are people close to me whose character I know first hand. I try to apply this to every situation in which I am faced with admiring someone's work because everyone is human and I think it is dangerous territory to think otherwise, to idolize them. My experience in the entertainment industry for the past fourteen years has allowed me the privilege of learning this first hand, which allows me to be a complete fan of his writing. He truly is a talented writer who inspires people to be individuals and follow their dreams and because that is what I believe in life of course I am a fan of work that makes me feel connected and less alone. I have been reading his books since I was 21 and my ex boyfriend Sergio, who is still my friend, recommended The Alchemist. So in a way I have Sergio to thank for all this.
3)Do you know if P. Coelho has structured his novel in that particular way (with many well-separated points of view) because he wanted to develop the Experimental Witch later?
I don't believe so but that question can only be answered by the man himself. ;-)
4)Who worked on the script of the adaptation?
Myself and a cast member from my play The Art of Being, Kris Pustina Haldane. I had cast her in my play and knew of her talent for writing so I called her up, explained the project and told her we had a deadline. You see when I found out about the competition it was late in the game and I had three months to adapt, produce and become Athena. She agreed to join me on the journey which quite honestly was easy from the angle that the work we had to adapt had to stay as true as possible to the novel after all it was his original work that people were longing to see because of its ability to inspire. While we did make minor changes I did want it to be clear I wanted to stay as close as possible to what was already written. The changes I talk about happened because of where we were shooting and logistics. Adapting for me was where I grew tremendously as an artist for I had never done it before and I found it to be an amazing teacher of my capabilities.
5)What troubles have you coped with during the shooting?
Overall it was a great set! Everyone knew how important this shoot was to me because of the way it had come to be. I made it clear from the beginning that if I pushed hard for a particular vision it was because of how important this was to me. It was not just simply making a movie for the point of making a movie or getting noticed. I had national exposure with my play and it taught me that if you receive any notoriety or attention it is best used to open more doors to be able to continue to live your dream and help other live theirs by providing them with jobs.
Attention for the sake of attention has never made sense to me. So everyone was aware that this was a dream of mine coming true beyond what I ever expected and they respected that. I surrounded myself with people who love what they do and that made it easy too. My DP Neil Lisk is the kindest hardest working talented DP I've ever worked with and led the crew very well. The director and I at some points had different visions but again he respected where I was coming from and I respected his talent in an area of which I am not experienced in, film directing, so a compromise was always reached.
In the end I was fighting for a vision that allowed people to find comfort in their "flaws" and feel seen. My ex boyfriend saw what I consider to be my attributes as flaws and I know a lot of creative people feel pressure from people to be something else so this was a tribute to a woman, Athena, who refused to dishonor her true being by becoming what others wanted her to be. In the end my fight to capture that may have made it difficult to work with me but I certainly hope not. I am however aware that I am stubborn when it comes to trusting my gut. I listen to that before I listen to anyone else and if it happens to go line with what they suggest then it simply does and if it doesn't, it doesn't but again its about being authentic and true to my vision and work and knowing when to let go.
6)How many people did they work in your crew? Is it possible to know how much money you have invested (approximately)?
I spent a total of $7500 in filming and $2500 in post production and getting packages to Italy where the production is based. My crew consisted of 11 crew and 5 actors. I was unable to secure sponsorships so I out of pocketed the expenses. Dreams do come at a price and I always think it's important for people to know about the journey and not just see the destination, which in this case is the Rome Film Festival.
7)Does the fact that your adaptation is destined to be integrated into a mash-up movie influence the concept of your work itself?
Not at all. I honestly am not a person whose work is done with a certain set of rules affiliated with a film school or any format. I simply follow my heart and what feels right to me. This makes it a little hard for people who are very set in a way of doing things to work with me and visa versa but I always want to do that which I am passionate about and my gut tells me to.
8)To what extent do new technologies (and among those cinema digitalisation) allow you to experiment artistically? How do they make shooting easier?
This would honestly be a question for my DP as he handled all the equipment etc. Post Production, which I did handle, did not include any new technologies because of our budget. It was done in a very simple way and with the tools we were presented with.
9)You saw the final cut. Are you satisfied with the final version of the film destined to theatres?
I am! I feel like you can't really judge other people's work although I am in an industry that is all about judging. When I view people's work I am allowed a view into their mind and creativity. Sometimes I may not understand it but I always respect it because creativity expressed in any way is a person's own individual taste being exposed to the world. Had I done the final cut all you would have seen would be my version of the book. I felt that Elisabetta the producer did the book justice as best as she could with what she was given. Remember she had to take many people's visions put them together and have them represent the work of a well renowned author whose following expects a lot. It was very courageous of both Paulo and his production team and us the filmmakers to go there. I think we did a great job while exploring new territory and I hope our journey inspires more productions and collaborations like this one.
10) Do you think that Coelho’s audience will love the product? How will it understand it?
I can not speak for other people. I can only speak for myself. I have no idea what their taste is like but again I am in a very critical judgemental industry and I believe that if people knew more of what truly goes on behind the scenes, like my personal story to make the film happen, they may open their minds more and see with different eyes. However they are only seeing the final presentation and well like I said I can't speak for them. I do know first hand that all the filmmakers have amazing stories as to how their film came to be and their journey as they filmed and eventually won. So my only hope is that they see our work through the eyes of love and take what they'd like. As the old saying goes, "you can't judge someone until you've walked in their shoes", which if we took to heart it'd be easier to release judgement. ;-)
11)Do you think that the final mash-up film could be difficult to comprehend?
Absolutely if you aren't a fan of Paulo Coelho or read the book The Witch of Portobello. But would art really be art if it was always understood and if everything held an explanation how would we grow? We'd have nothing to question and be in awe of. So even if it's not undertstood it's making people's minds function and opening them up to thinking for themselves and opening their views on life. I strongly believe that is what his work does. I feel like he was destined to write in a way that just resonates so strongly with anyone inclined to follow THEIR heart and struggling with that concept.
12)What is your opinion on the increasing presence of artistic products on the Internet made both by users and local and international artists? What are the advantages and disadvantages of this condition? To what extent does the Internet help you to convey your works?
I used to not be a fan of technology like the internet at all because I used to think it was seperating us and making our communication dependant on texting, emails, etc. and I was so sad that I could get answers from people a lot easier by those formats than by actual personal contact or phone conversations. Lets not mention letters, which I still write and seal with wax. I could definitely forget snail mail it was becoming a thing of the past.
My opinion changed drastically in 2007 when I set out to do the tour of my play. I was dependent on the internet for everything from research to publicity. Let's not forget that my work won the Toyota Moving Forward Award from GLAMOUR magazine because of the internet so that was my first opening of the mind of how powerful the internet truly is. Of course all this was followed by finding out about Paulo's film competition through a newsletter from www.goodreads.com futher opening me up to how amazing technology truly is and when used with caution and respect it can create amazing scenarios. I hope Paulo's example of how filmmaking can be made is followed by others because it grants opportunities to people who don't live Hollywood or an industry town to have a dream come true.
For me overall as an independent producer who funds my productions through sponsorships I am very much in need of the internet. I have to research everything imaginable from who runs the sponsor or fund programs at companies, to directors, actors, music for the film/play, locations, permits, everything. I work pretty much on my own until it gets close to filming and everyone hired starts to work so let's just say the internet makes it a lot easier for me to live my dream. I hope more people realize the possibilities it holds. Even sites like Facebook and myspace expose me to artists which allows me to collaborate with them even if they are in another country as was the case with Birte Nordahl and some of the people who worked on The Experimental Witch were hired through Craigslist. Technology truly is amazing!
13)What socio-cultural visibility have indie productions got in your country?
This is a tough one to answer as I am just venturing into the realm of film as I had prior to this only done work producing theater or as a hired actor. This is one I am learning about right now. I honestly can say that in my experience I had never witnessed anything like what Paulo did with this competition. However I am certain there is a lot going on here that I am about to get involved in as I venture into producing my first feature film and become exposed to it.
14)Does The Experimental Witch foster your public image? To what extent?
It has most definitely opened doors for me but a lot of it has to do with awareness and my willingness to seize the opportunities, which I learned from my prior work and the opportunities it brought. I think if we get out of our own way when the universe steps in to guide us to dreams that exceed our expectations we truly have the opportunity to foster our work. For me it's about learning to decipher the difference between what I want and what the universe wants and has in store me. Most of all trusting in the wisdom of what I believe in, God and the universe.
Once I did that I was sent into a realm of endless possibilities where my life constantly teaches me in many scenarios what I am capable of so when the opportunity to produce my first film came I took on the challenge and ended up in Rome, being interviewed by Latin Star Magazine while being named by them the Latin Star to watch and now doing an interview with you because I stopped to talk to you at the premiere instead of rushing to the after party. If I am present in the moment I am open to its gifts. I also received a request from Fringe Report for an interview after Rome because they found me online. Most recently a film festival in the Netherlands found my work on the internet and requested it after learning about it from the Rome Film Festival.
So with awareness I am able to see more and more everyday that when you follow your passion doors open that you never even dreamt of and it keeps happening to me. I don't take it lightly and I work had with the opportunities granted to me to be able to give my work a voice in a saturated industry.
I am very grateful to Paulo for creating an idea that led me on an amazing journey and continues to do so. It most definitely continues to foster my career/work and that of others as I am about to produce my first feature film based on a story by Austin based writer John Rincon. All this is a trickle effect and when you work with others you foster your career and theirs and in my world only great things can come of that even on a challenging road to the destination but for me it's all about the journey.
15)What do you think about P. Coelho’s use of Twitter, MySpace and his blog? Do you think that for an artist it is best a peer-to-peer communication with his fans or to conceal himself in order to build a mistery aura which enhance curiosity?
I absolutely love it! I am a big believer that humanity is equality and like I said earlier, "reward the mission not the man" so to see people who have a high profile in the arts/entertainment reaching out to the people that put them there makes me very happy. After all this is what made the Experimental Witch possible and led to this interview. I see other artist like singer Jason Mraz do it as well and I can only hope that more people follow Paulo and Jason. For me inspiration to be creative comes from life and all it entails to be human so without a connection to your fellow beings it would be hard to see your ideas come to fruition because you can't draw inspiration out of thin air. Inspiration comes from LIVING life and its challenges. In the end we need eachother and reaching out in these types of formats facilitates art/entertainment. I commend Paulo, Jason, and anyone else doing it for leading the way.
16)How do you think the relationship between cinematic apparatus and new media will evolve?
Silvia as I am on your last question I have to commend you for truly making me think and giving me an opportunity to have a voice. Your questions are truly those of someone who put a lot of thought into it so thank you for being a great teacher to me today as I do this.
I hope that they grow and continue to expand working with eachother for the benefit of art/entertainment. Technology in filmmaking continues to grow tremendously because of people like James Cameron willing to follow their heart and go out a limb risking tremendous failure only to find himself revolutionizing cinema which had a lot to do with technology. A technology that now is being highly discussed in the media and can open up all of us in the industry to what is truly possible and to the idea that if we combine all our tools together we can create amazing things. Just like we need eachother to make things possible so does the current cinematic apparatus need from the new media to give exposure to the growth of our field. I am very happy to be alive in a day and age when people are truly working hard to make use of all we have been given from spiritual to technological to media because in my view of the world in the end they all go hand in hand and create endless possibilities that reach and touch people all over the world.
THE END! ;-) You can see the film I was talking about in this interview below. It is broken down into three parts and in case you didn't catch on it won Paulo Coelho's International Film Competition and is based on his novel The Witch of Portobello.
Tuesday, January 12, 2010
Seeing the light at the end of the tunnel. Literally!
I have to start off my day with my early morning hike because it is up at Runyon where I get in touch with all that I believe in and where I reaffirm all my beliefs as I walk through an amazing place full of ladybugs,(one which I picked up today and watched for a while until she flew away), butterflies, trees (whose heights make me realize how small yet important I am), and of course people. Today I decided I would say good morning to everyone. It's funny because right away it was obvious I wasn't walking town lake back home in Austin where everyone says hi to everyone. I was saying good morning while being tempted to say goedemorgen so I can practice my Dutch but if good morning caused some people to look at me like what?, I can only imagine what Goedemorgen would have done. I did it because I think it's important we acknowledge eachother. What I had no clue was how the universe would be acknowledging me.
You see as I was making my way up my hike I was thinking about so many things and conversing with God about it. I was thinking how four years ago I started this journey of my production company and not only was I grateful for all I've lived but I was expressing gratitude for how tremendously my faith has grown and how much more calm I am overall because well faith will do that to you. Knowing God and the universe are working with you and for you just takes you to a whole other place and allows you to live as this says below:
Living this way in love and trust of the God and the universe's wisdom allows me to see the signs. I have a lot of deadlines/meetings this week. They all came at once for UNICEF, my latest film, and another really big personal one. So I've been telling myself all week first things first no matter what time I make it up to that hike I must because in order for me to function I need to take care of me first. I must admit something that I hope puts a smile on your face. I've developed a massive crush on Hugh Laurie and right now would be a good time to clarify I am crushing on him not House. I think if I was crushing on House I'd take myself over to a therapist instead of writing this. ;-) Anyway last night I stayed up you tubing him which is why I stressed to myself that no matter when I started my day it was most important I start with my hike. I did find this which only made me like him more, with all respect to his wife and family. ;-)
I can't wait to tell my sister because I love when she says, "You get more and more realistic everyday." The funny thing is I actually like it more when it becomes a reality and she sees it for herself. Whatever it is I told her would happen that is. In this case nothing cause he's a married man and it's a harmless crush. See what happens when you're single for two years! ;-) Back to the sign that came my way today. As I was making my way up I was conversing with God about everything but especially the last four years and as I spoke of having gratitude for being able to face what I have and walk through it to the other side I had a vision of Jesus carrying me when I couldn't walk anymore and then it turned into a colorful vision just like the ones in the Lovely Bones trailer where the in between is beautiful and breathtaking. At that moment I remember thinking I wish I could paint what I see. I told God that I knew a lot laid before me in the coming days, some things the universe has asked me to deal with that I'd rather not but once again I told God that as usual I had all my trust in them and that as far as UNICEF went I knew that they knew our intention so they would pull through even if it was at 11:59pm on the 14th. The 15th is our deadline with headquarters.
As life has shown me miracles happen when you least expect them and when they do be ready. I kept hearing "be ready for what lies ahead for now you face the storm but what will unfold once you go through it you will be ready for and have been prepared exactly for this moment" and then it happened. While I was having this conversation I was looking at how beautiful the cloud pattern was today. AMAZING to be exact and tears started to roll down my face for in that moment I felt so in touch with everything I believe in, so guided and taken care of. While I stared at the clouds and into the sky it appeared, a small patch of the clouds in bright colors like a rainbow in the shape of an angel. At first I thought I was seeing things but as I stood there it's brightness made it clear that it was there. I believe that not only was I not seeing things but God was saying I hear you in an amazing way! It was my light at the end of the tunnel, literally!!! I wanted to run and ask others if they saw it and lamented that I didn't have my camera. Then I was reminded of the biggest lesson my life has taught me in the last four years. What is most important is what I see and what I perceive not what anyone else sees or perceives because it is after all my interpretation of things that has manifested the life I lead.
Now I sit here in my home office back in the storm and I want it to be over with, all the hard work. I must confess just for today I want to not have to face all I am facing but then I am reminded of all I have faced in the last four years (in life for that matter) and what it lead to because I faced it, embraced it, and went through it and it makes me accept what I have to do now and be present in the now. While reminding myself that I am not in control of the outcome but I will work hard through everything life sends me to make it to what God and the universe have reserved for me, for UNICEF, for my next film, for humanity, and for the unconditional love I know I deserve and am receiving this year. I trust in God's timing for that too for I will not be with someone who wants to stand in front of me or behind me for that matter I want someone who will Stand by me
, what a lovely example the couple in that video is of what accepting someone just as they are and bringing out the best in them can produce. I am deserving of that and while I may face my current storm alone it won't be like that forever because the one thing that is certain is CHANGE. I am betting on God, the universe and the winds of change to bring me the kind of LOVE only time, patience, growth and faith can produce.
I leave you with this. Everytime I am tired and want to give in I watch Elizabeth the Golden Age. I think of all she had to face in her time and I realize how grateful I am to face what I do in this day and age. When anyone shakes their fist at me trying to control me or a situation I know it's fear knocking at my door so I let faith answer. May your faith lead you to your light at the end of the tunnel and remember no one has to see it but you!
You see as I was making my way up my hike I was thinking about so many things and conversing with God about it. I was thinking how four years ago I started this journey of my production company and not only was I grateful for all I've lived but I was expressing gratitude for how tremendously my faith has grown and how much more calm I am overall because well faith will do that to you. Knowing God and the universe are working with you and for you just takes you to a whole other place and allows you to live as this says below:
Living this way in love and trust of the God and the universe's wisdom allows me to see the signs. I have a lot of deadlines/meetings this week. They all came at once for UNICEF, my latest film, and another really big personal one. So I've been telling myself all week first things first no matter what time I make it up to that hike I must because in order for me to function I need to take care of me first. I must admit something that I hope puts a smile on your face. I've developed a massive crush on Hugh Laurie and right now would be a good time to clarify I am crushing on him not House. I think if I was crushing on House I'd take myself over to a therapist instead of writing this. ;-) Anyway last night I stayed up you tubing him which is why I stressed to myself that no matter when I started my day it was most important I start with my hike. I did find this which only made me like him more, with all respect to his wife and family. ;-)
I can't wait to tell my sister because I love when she says, "You get more and more realistic everyday." The funny thing is I actually like it more when it becomes a reality and she sees it for herself. Whatever it is I told her would happen that is. In this case nothing cause he's a married man and it's a harmless crush. See what happens when you're single for two years! ;-) Back to the sign that came my way today. As I was making my way up I was conversing with God about everything but especially the last four years and as I spoke of having gratitude for being able to face what I have and walk through it to the other side I had a vision of Jesus carrying me when I couldn't walk anymore and then it turned into a colorful vision just like the ones in the Lovely Bones trailer where the in between is beautiful and breathtaking. At that moment I remember thinking I wish I could paint what I see. I told God that I knew a lot laid before me in the coming days, some things the universe has asked me to deal with that I'd rather not but once again I told God that as usual I had all my trust in them and that as far as UNICEF went I knew that they knew our intention so they would pull through even if it was at 11:59pm on the 14th. The 15th is our deadline with headquarters.
As life has shown me miracles happen when you least expect them and when they do be ready. I kept hearing "be ready for what lies ahead for now you face the storm but what will unfold once you go through it you will be ready for and have been prepared exactly for this moment" and then it happened. While I was having this conversation I was looking at how beautiful the cloud pattern was today. AMAZING to be exact and tears started to roll down my face for in that moment I felt so in touch with everything I believe in, so guided and taken care of. While I stared at the clouds and into the sky it appeared, a small patch of the clouds in bright colors like a rainbow in the shape of an angel. At first I thought I was seeing things but as I stood there it's brightness made it clear that it was there. I believe that not only was I not seeing things but God was saying I hear you in an amazing way! It was my light at the end of the tunnel, literally!!! I wanted to run and ask others if they saw it and lamented that I didn't have my camera. Then I was reminded of the biggest lesson my life has taught me in the last four years. What is most important is what I see and what I perceive not what anyone else sees or perceives because it is after all my interpretation of things that has manifested the life I lead.
Now I sit here in my home office back in the storm and I want it to be over with, all the hard work. I must confess just for today I want to not have to face all I am facing but then I am reminded of all I have faced in the last four years (in life for that matter) and what it lead to because I faced it, embraced it, and went through it and it makes me accept what I have to do now and be present in the now. While reminding myself that I am not in control of the outcome but I will work hard through everything life sends me to make it to what God and the universe have reserved for me, for UNICEF, for my next film, for humanity, and for the unconditional love I know I deserve and am receiving this year. I trust in God's timing for that too for I will not be with someone who wants to stand in front of me or behind me for that matter I want someone who will Stand by me
, what a lovely example the couple in that video is of what accepting someone just as they are and bringing out the best in them can produce. I am deserving of that and while I may face my current storm alone it won't be like that forever because the one thing that is certain is CHANGE. I am betting on God, the universe and the winds of change to bring me the kind of LOVE only time, patience, growth and faith can produce.
I leave you with this. Everytime I am tired and want to give in I watch Elizabeth the Golden Age. I think of all she had to face in her time and I realize how grateful I am to face what I do in this day and age. When anyone shakes their fist at me trying to control me or a situation I know it's fear knocking at my door so I let faith answer. May your faith lead you to your light at the end of the tunnel and remember no one has to see it but you!
Friday, January 1, 2010
I resolve to love this entirely new direction! Welcome 2010!
2009 has come to an end its time to head in an ENTIRELY NEW DIRECTION! So I awoke inspired to write which I have not been for a while as you can tell by my lack of posts. But this morning in my fresh new journal which has this quote on the cover, " The future belongs to those who believe in the beauty of the their dreams" and was a birthday gift my resolutions poured out of me and below is exactly how they appear in my journal.
I resolve to love more, live in the present moment more, to accept others just as they are, to be kind, loving, caring, compassionate. To know when to let go and when to press on. To take every lesson and GROW GROW GROW even when I just want the lesson to be done with. To continue to follow the signs no matter the challenges of the journey they lead me on for I trust in the wisdom of God and the universe enough to know the destination will exceed my dreams and expectations. I resolve to never loose hope and faith, to forgive more, to be me more and to encourage others to be themselves more in life and through my work. I resolve to continue to rely on miracles by working hard to make them my reality while believing in them.
I resolve to LOVE LOVE LOVE with every part of my being and this year I resolve to being open to receiving LOVE LOVE LOVE back unconditionally for I am worthy of being loved just as I am and just as God created and is creating me. I resolve to accept what is and not what I wish was. To continue to believe that saving lives IS IN THE UNSEEN THINGS WE DO EVERYDAY which receive no praise and are between me, God, and the universe. To be humble NO MATTER what I accomplish for the law of gravity applies to everyone and everything. To continue to believe that my worth is NOT based on what I look like or accomplish but how I react to what I look like and accomplish while remembering that people see the world as they are not as it is and will measure my beauty and success by how they feel inside so when people belittle me, my looks, my work, or my life I resolve to turn them over to God, send them light, hug them, and wish them the ability to define life, beauty, and success themselves so the judge disappears from their being.
I resolve to continue to love myself just as I am- lengthy, passionate, stubborn, a believer in the unseen, willing to live by this quote, "In matters of style swim with the current in matters of principle stand like a rock." T. Jefferson (actually wouldn't encourage swimming with the current in matters of style because it takes your individuality) ;-) etc.- while remembering that I am a work in progress where progress not (non-existent) perfection is my goal. I resolve to not only treat others and the planet with absolute love but myself too for I see that it is when I love myself just as I am that I am able to see every challenge, coincidence (don't believe in those) ;-), and life happening on life's terms as beautiful and just what God and the universe conspired to bring into my life to help me grow into someone far more than I dreamt for myself I could be. I resolve to love my family more, be more patient with their concerns, and thank God for them. After all in one way or another without them I would definitely not be me!
I just heard in the background on the Tournament of Roses parade the host introduce captain Sculley as a cut above the rest so I resolve to remind myself and others that labels are someones perception of something and that NO ONE is a cut above the rest because we are all EQUALS and EQUALLY UNIQUE with gifts that the challenges of life allow us to see for it is in standing in the fire surrounded by the flames of fear that we find out exactly who we are and how much courage we have. Therefore I resolve that everytime the flames of fear try to consume me and knock at my door I will take deep breaths and let faith answer.
I resolve to forgive myself when I can't love myself just as I am. I resolve to forgive others more. I sit in gratitude for all I have lived, am about to live, can see and not see, all who have crossed my path and impacted my life by accepting me or not accepting me. So I resolve to BE LOVE when hate arrives, to BE COURAGE when fear pursues me, to HAVE HOPE when what I see before me tries to persuade me otherwise, and most of all I resolve to continue to trust in the wisdom of God and the universe that when I follow the signs I live the life I am meant to which means I live out my dreams and encourage others to do so all while we take care of eachother, the planet, universe, and all we can not see which is impacted by every action we take. I resolve to continue to put my words into action. I RESOLVE TO LOVE 2010 AND ITS ENTIRELY NEW DIRECTION WHICH I AM READY TO BE GUIDED TOWARDS AS GOD IS MY COMPASS AND WHERE GOD LEADS I WILL GLADLY FOLLOW.
My dream for you is to imagine always that infinite possibilities are born of faith and dreams. BLESSED 2010 to you!
I resolve to love more, live in the present moment more, to accept others just as they are, to be kind, loving, caring, compassionate. To know when to let go and when to press on. To take every lesson and GROW GROW GROW even when I just want the lesson to be done with. To continue to follow the signs no matter the challenges of the journey they lead me on for I trust in the wisdom of God and the universe enough to know the destination will exceed my dreams and expectations. I resolve to never loose hope and faith, to forgive more, to be me more and to encourage others to be themselves more in life and through my work. I resolve to continue to rely on miracles by working hard to make them my reality while believing in them.
I resolve to LOVE LOVE LOVE with every part of my being and this year I resolve to being open to receiving LOVE LOVE LOVE back unconditionally for I am worthy of being loved just as I am and just as God created and is creating me. I resolve to accept what is and not what I wish was. To continue to believe that saving lives IS IN THE UNSEEN THINGS WE DO EVERYDAY which receive no praise and are between me, God, and the universe. To be humble NO MATTER what I accomplish for the law of gravity applies to everyone and everything. To continue to believe that my worth is NOT based on what I look like or accomplish but how I react to what I look like and accomplish while remembering that people see the world as they are not as it is and will measure my beauty and success by how they feel inside so when people belittle me, my looks, my work, or my life I resolve to turn them over to God, send them light, hug them, and wish them the ability to define life, beauty, and success themselves so the judge disappears from their being.
I resolve to continue to love myself just as I am- lengthy, passionate, stubborn, a believer in the unseen, willing to live by this quote, "In matters of style swim with the current in matters of principle stand like a rock." T. Jefferson (actually wouldn't encourage swimming with the current in matters of style because it takes your individuality) ;-) etc.- while remembering that I am a work in progress where progress not (non-existent) perfection is my goal. I resolve to not only treat others and the planet with absolute love but myself too for I see that it is when I love myself just as I am that I am able to see every challenge, coincidence (don't believe in those) ;-), and life happening on life's terms as beautiful and just what God and the universe conspired to bring into my life to help me grow into someone far more than I dreamt for myself I could be. I resolve to love my family more, be more patient with their concerns, and thank God for them. After all in one way or another without them I would definitely not be me!
I just heard in the background on the Tournament of Roses parade the host introduce captain Sculley as a cut above the rest so I resolve to remind myself and others that labels are someones perception of something and that NO ONE is a cut above the rest because we are all EQUALS and EQUALLY UNIQUE with gifts that the challenges of life allow us to see for it is in standing in the fire surrounded by the flames of fear that we find out exactly who we are and how much courage we have. Therefore I resolve that everytime the flames of fear try to consume me and knock at my door I will take deep breaths and let faith answer.
I resolve to forgive myself when I can't love myself just as I am. I resolve to forgive others more. I sit in gratitude for all I have lived, am about to live, can see and not see, all who have crossed my path and impacted my life by accepting me or not accepting me. So I resolve to BE LOVE when hate arrives, to BE COURAGE when fear pursues me, to HAVE HOPE when what I see before me tries to persuade me otherwise, and most of all I resolve to continue to trust in the wisdom of God and the universe that when I follow the signs I live the life I am meant to which means I live out my dreams and encourage others to do so all while we take care of eachother, the planet, universe, and all we can not see which is impacted by every action we take. I resolve to continue to put my words into action. I RESOLVE TO LOVE 2010 AND ITS ENTIRELY NEW DIRECTION WHICH I AM READY TO BE GUIDED TOWARDS AS GOD IS MY COMPASS AND WHERE GOD LEADS I WILL GLADLY FOLLOW.
My dream for you is to imagine always that infinite possibilities are born of faith and dreams. BLESSED 2010 to you!
Saturday, December 5, 2009
UNICEF and H&M create an organic cotton reusable bag for $3.95! Portion of proceeds benefit UNICEF's All for Children program!
Since becoming an Honorary Ambassador for UNICEF
and the Los Angeles UNICEF Tap Project City Coordinator
I spend a lot of time researching anything related to well UNICEF. I found out that both H&M and Gucci are partnered with UNICEF. The best part is that there is a great inexpensive way for you to support the H&M project which affects the planet and children in a positive way. For just $3.95 you can get the Sonia Rykiel for UNICEF & H&M 100% organic cotton reusable bag out today! So if fashion, taking care of the planet and its inhabitants is on your xmas list this year please follow the sign ;-)
which will lead you to this
I encourage you to use them as gift bags this xmas. Instead of rolls of paper or paper gifts bags please THINK about buying this bag! I will step off the podium now. Thank you for taking the time to read this. To find out more about the ALL FOR CHILDREN program visit All for Children
and
H&M and UNICEF work together
So join my friend Andi, who got hers today, and go get yours. ;-)
With gratitude,
Adriana
and the Los Angeles UNICEF Tap Project City Coordinator
I spend a lot of time researching anything related to well UNICEF. I found out that both H&M and Gucci are partnered with UNICEF. The best part is that there is a great inexpensive way for you to support the H&M project which affects the planet and children in a positive way. For just $3.95 you can get the Sonia Rykiel for UNICEF & H&M 100% organic cotton reusable bag out today! So if fashion, taking care of the planet and its inhabitants is on your xmas list this year please follow the sign ;-)
which will lead you to this
I encourage you to use them as gift bags this xmas. Instead of rolls of paper or paper gifts bags please THINK about buying this bag! I will step off the podium now. Thank you for taking the time to read this. To find out more about the ALL FOR CHILDREN program visit All for Children
and
H&M and UNICEF work together
So join my friend Andi, who got hers today, and go get yours. ;-)
With gratitude,
Adriana
Tuesday, December 1, 2009
Being the change you wish to see in the world. My passion for UNICEF.
I am exhausted today but I did it to myself again. I thought I had conquered the balance of work and rest my body requires in order to function properly but today it finally caught up with me. I have been requesting that my body go go go since before I left for Rome over a month ago and of course the last minute car accident the week prior to the film festival put me into a bigger rush. So last night as we were winding down our UNICEF fundraiser location scouting day with Kirsten from the NY headquarters I knew it, the time had come to rest or pay the price again. Last time the price was a premature stress induced heartbeat because I refused to slow down. Almost two years after being diagnosed I know what I can do to myself if I don't listen to my body. I say I do it to myself because I am indeed responsible for EVERY choice I make. I am very aware of that. So today I chose to do as little work as possible and rest trusting that everything for the GLAMOUR Holiday party Friday will be ready on time, God's time, if I allow it to be.
As I sat wrapped comfortably in my blanket on my couch in my cozy home I turned on the tv, which I rarely do, and right away knew the universe was speaking to me. An episode of Oprah was beginning and I haven't stopped crying since its inception. Its still on. NY Times Columnist Nicholas Kristof and his co writer and wife Sheryl WuDunn are on taking about the atrocities in the Congo and the genocide in Darfur which they write about in Half the Sky and which he has seen up close. Of course the moment the first story appeared I couldn't stop crying. I have always questioned how could this be happening. So right know I am asking myself how can half of the world be buying into the media's selling of Christmas allowing themselves to believe that things are going to make us happy while someone is dying because their family can't pay a doctor $100 for an operation. I have questioned the injustices of the world for as long as I can remember especially more so as I watch people in the town I live in become their possessions, be owned by them, and have it be their identity. I think to myself while you shop your life away a child of God takes their last breath because they didn't have the medication they needed. Inside I cry out please open your eyes knowing all I can truly do is lead by example because the truth is it takes a lot more than just opening your eyes. It takes opening every part of your being starting with your heart! This is probably the reason why this quote recently became my favorite, "Given the amount of unjust suffering and unhappiness in the world, I am deeply grateful for, sometimes even perplexed by,how much misery I have been spared.” I'd like to add while I am grateful for what I have been spared I can not stand by and watch others suffer. I take people's pain as if it were my own because in the end I believe we are all one.
I have always believed and will until the day I die no matter what challenges I face and even if fear and evil come to greet me that the solution to ANGER is LOVE, the solution to FEAR is LOVE, the solution to HATRED is LOVE so basically anything negative should be treated with LOVE. I had someone dispute this with me quite sternly last year and a year later I still believe LOVE is the answer no matter how badly you've been hurt. I don't believe in reacting in the moment I believe in sitting down and turning that person over to God in prayer trusting that becoming what fear asks of you in the moment you will come to regret sooner or later. Yes not only do I believe in taking the high road, I advocate it because my ego no longer resides here. Sure it tries to occupy residency in me once in a while but I simply remind it that I choose my tenants and ego is not welcome.
So as I sat crying in the warmth of my comfortable beautiful place I call home the tears became more intense. Why I questioned do I sit here and someone lies dying somewhere. The answer came as it has before, in order for humanity to become compassionate it must be put in scenarios where compassion is required. It eases my pain a little and then I am reminded of the most effective thing I can do, BE THE CHANGE I WISH TO SEE IN THE WORLD. That is all I can truly do because crying over it or condemning others for not helping when they can won't solve the problem. I must be the solution to the best of my abilities and so my journey continues with UNICEF.
I will stop at nothing to make my fundraiser successful not because I want to put on the best show in town and prove to myself and LA what I can do but because children in a faraway land are depending on me to do so, so they can have clean water. This responsibility is one I CHOOSE. No paycheck and a lot of work but the biggest reward ever, knowing that when my existence on this planet comes to end I will have contributed to our evolution in a positive way and that my friends is of more value to me than a paycheck signed by someone as I do something I could care less about. People may call me crazy but I call myself a dreamer who with the guidance of God and the universe makes those dreams a reality. Dreams held passionately in my heart and I have come to learn that with passion all is possible so follow your passion!
I trust that in due time, which I call Gods time, I will taken care of too. The truth is I already am. I spoke about sitting comfortably in my cozy home repeatedly to acknowledge people are lying on the grass dying in some place on this beautiful universe because they don't have a basic need. That in my book is not fair and I will not stand by and do nothing!!! From now until March I will call on those around me to help fight the lack of clean water in underdeveloped countries by coming on board as a performer, volunteer or donor as I continue to be an honorary Ambassador for UNICEF and the Los Angeles UNICEF Tap Project City Coordinator. Although donating is great and needed to keep non-profits alive I encourage you take part in volunteering. Being a part of the solution physically makes a world of difference to a lot of lives. To me sometimes not knowing whose life I touched but knowing I have is the best reward. In case you are wondering I became involved with the Tap Project after being cast in its commercial earlier this year and after years of being a UNICEF donor a dream beyond my expectations came true. I was cast in a commercial that lined up with my beliefs.
I ask you to join me in supporting UNICEF's Tap Project
by donating or signing up to volunteer. You can go to site now and register. Most of all be ready to go out and eat during World Water Week March 21-27, 2010. Visit the website to see what I mean.
Last but not least I say this lovingly, to those of you who I've contacted to become a part of the fundraiser and I have yet to hear from be warned I do not give up easily when I am fighting for my passion!! ;-) After all had I learned to give up I would not be driving around in a hybrid or met Paulo Coelho and collaborated on a film with him. With guidance from the universe and God by my side I make the impossible possible. I know we will make this a VERY successful UNICEF Tap Project fundraiser because the universe already told me it will be and in God and the universe I have all my trust. I hope the video below compells you to join me on my journey. Don't worry I have not given up the day job, acting/producing, but for now this is where God and universe need me and where I can be of most service. May you always have the grace to be love. I will be love to my body now and go back to resting after all I have a UNICEF meeting tonight. BE THE CHANGE YOU WISH TO SEE IN THE WORLD!
As I sat wrapped comfortably in my blanket on my couch in my cozy home I turned on the tv, which I rarely do, and right away knew the universe was speaking to me. An episode of Oprah was beginning and I haven't stopped crying since its inception. Its still on. NY Times Columnist Nicholas Kristof and his co writer and wife Sheryl WuDunn are on taking about the atrocities in the Congo and the genocide in Darfur which they write about in Half the Sky and which he has seen up close. Of course the moment the first story appeared I couldn't stop crying. I have always questioned how could this be happening. So right know I am asking myself how can half of the world be buying into the media's selling of Christmas allowing themselves to believe that things are going to make us happy while someone is dying because their family can't pay a doctor $100 for an operation. I have questioned the injustices of the world for as long as I can remember especially more so as I watch people in the town I live in become their possessions, be owned by them, and have it be their identity. I think to myself while you shop your life away a child of God takes their last breath because they didn't have the medication they needed. Inside I cry out please open your eyes knowing all I can truly do is lead by example because the truth is it takes a lot more than just opening your eyes. It takes opening every part of your being starting with your heart! This is probably the reason why this quote recently became my favorite, "Given the amount of unjust suffering and unhappiness in the world, I am deeply grateful for, sometimes even perplexed by,how much misery I have been spared.” I'd like to add while I am grateful for what I have been spared I can not stand by and watch others suffer. I take people's pain as if it were my own because in the end I believe we are all one.
I have always believed and will until the day I die no matter what challenges I face and even if fear and evil come to greet me that the solution to ANGER is LOVE, the solution to FEAR is LOVE, the solution to HATRED is LOVE so basically anything negative should be treated with LOVE. I had someone dispute this with me quite sternly last year and a year later I still believe LOVE is the answer no matter how badly you've been hurt. I don't believe in reacting in the moment I believe in sitting down and turning that person over to God in prayer trusting that becoming what fear asks of you in the moment you will come to regret sooner or later. Yes not only do I believe in taking the high road, I advocate it because my ego no longer resides here. Sure it tries to occupy residency in me once in a while but I simply remind it that I choose my tenants and ego is not welcome.
So as I sat crying in the warmth of my comfortable beautiful place I call home the tears became more intense. Why I questioned do I sit here and someone lies dying somewhere. The answer came as it has before, in order for humanity to become compassionate it must be put in scenarios where compassion is required. It eases my pain a little and then I am reminded of the most effective thing I can do, BE THE CHANGE I WISH TO SEE IN THE WORLD. That is all I can truly do because crying over it or condemning others for not helping when they can won't solve the problem. I must be the solution to the best of my abilities and so my journey continues with UNICEF.
I will stop at nothing to make my fundraiser successful not because I want to put on the best show in town and prove to myself and LA what I can do but because children in a faraway land are depending on me to do so, so they can have clean water. This responsibility is one I CHOOSE. No paycheck and a lot of work but the biggest reward ever, knowing that when my existence on this planet comes to end I will have contributed to our evolution in a positive way and that my friends is of more value to me than a paycheck signed by someone as I do something I could care less about. People may call me crazy but I call myself a dreamer who with the guidance of God and the universe makes those dreams a reality. Dreams held passionately in my heart and I have come to learn that with passion all is possible so follow your passion!
I trust that in due time, which I call Gods time, I will taken care of too. The truth is I already am. I spoke about sitting comfortably in my cozy home repeatedly to acknowledge people are lying on the grass dying in some place on this beautiful universe because they don't have a basic need. That in my book is not fair and I will not stand by and do nothing!!! From now until March I will call on those around me to help fight the lack of clean water in underdeveloped countries by coming on board as a performer, volunteer or donor as I continue to be an honorary Ambassador for UNICEF and the Los Angeles UNICEF Tap Project City Coordinator. Although donating is great and needed to keep non-profits alive I encourage you take part in volunteering. Being a part of the solution physically makes a world of difference to a lot of lives. To me sometimes not knowing whose life I touched but knowing I have is the best reward. In case you are wondering I became involved with the Tap Project after being cast in its commercial earlier this year and after years of being a UNICEF donor a dream beyond my expectations came true. I was cast in a commercial that lined up with my beliefs.
I ask you to join me in supporting UNICEF's Tap Project
by donating or signing up to volunteer. You can go to site now and register. Most of all be ready to go out and eat during World Water Week March 21-27, 2010. Visit the website to see what I mean.
Last but not least I say this lovingly, to those of you who I've contacted to become a part of the fundraiser and I have yet to hear from be warned I do not give up easily when I am fighting for my passion!! ;-) After all had I learned to give up I would not be driving around in a hybrid or met Paulo Coelho and collaborated on a film with him. With guidance from the universe and God by my side I make the impossible possible. I know we will make this a VERY successful UNICEF Tap Project fundraiser because the universe already told me it will be and in God and the universe I have all my trust. I hope the video below compells you to join me on my journey. Don't worry I have not given up the day job, acting/producing, but for now this is where God and universe need me and where I can be of most service. May you always have the grace to be love. I will be love to my body now and go back to resting after all I have a UNICEF meeting tonight. BE THE CHANGE YOU WISH TO SEE IN THE WORLD!
Thursday, November 26, 2009
In Gratitude for everything is how I've learned to live my life!
After all I have had to get done in the past few days I told myself I would not turn on the computer today. I would just lay around in bed. Something I never do as most mornings consist of me logging in very early and heading out to hike by 7am. I love to start my morning with a hike as I get in touch with everything I believe in up there. Some people go to church, I go hike. However today I was going to do things differently. Okay so it didn't quite work out that way but when you are inspired to write you just have to. I did skip the hike but here I am typing away...in my pjs. ;-)
I woke up in Gratitude not only because of the day it is but because it is the way I have come to live my life. About almost four years ago all the work I had done in therapy became organic and that meant awareness became a part of my life. From that moment on I have lived in gratitude for everything with awareness. Not that I didn't have gratitude before but I hadn't truly learned how to be grateful for the challenges. The other day I posted on my facebook a thought I woke up with that morning, "Adriana Garza woke up thinking about how every challenge brings me closer to my friends and family and allows me to grow in LOVE. So for every road block or detour I say thank you for it has brought me closer to you!" That pretty much sums up how I view life these days.
I could sit here and go on on about everything on my plate and how hard things can be or I can adapt an attitude of gratitude, which I do only because organically I have come to see how beautiful each moment in life is and what it brings me usually outweighs the challenge. Gratitude my friends can not be faked. It comes from truly understanding what a gift it is to have been able to wake this morning take a breath and head over here to share Thanksgiving with you even if its through cyberspace. One of the things I am incredibly grateful for and I never thought I would be.
I used to think technology was distancing people. I mean with my friends growing more and more comfortable with texting and emailing I was beginning to be saddened by the fact that they used that as their main form of communication. What happened to getting together for face to face time? I got over that as soon as my play hit the road in 2007 and we used the internet as our main tool of promotion. I can not tell you how many AMAZING beautiful people I met because of it. People like Jen Marie and Darice who are my friends until this day. Most recently I met Eric Schwartz and Jason Mraz because of the internet. Because of Jason's kindness I went on to meet Sarah, Kim, Rosie, Michelle, Leah, Andi, Danielle, and many other beautiful souls. Let's not forget the amazing journey that was born because of the internet, The Experimental Witch
. I have come to see what a huge advantage it is to be able to log on and connect to someone on the other side of the world. It is also how I met my friend Maggie in London and how I am able to keep in touch with my beautiful friend Silke in Germany. So today I am very grateful for the internet!
My list of gratitude is endless! I am grateful for my breath, my sight, my legs, existence, love, compassion, the challenges, the fun times, this computer even if it keeps giving me problems, ;-) my life, my car, my friends, my family, my lovers past and present. Well actually present would currently only consist of Juan who makes appearances with me in my we are what we do videos. Meet him here!
I really could go on forever! However today I will focus on the present moment. Right now I am being given the opportunity to LIVE some serious and fun journeys. I am grateful for both. GLAMOUR has asked me to host The GLAMOUR Magazine Canon Ball Holiday Party
in LA. They contacted me Monday wanting me to put it all together by December 4th. By Monday evening I had one musical act and a venue. By Tuesday I had another musical act and then Eric agreed to co host with me! It all came together pretty quickly. I felt a bit of pressure to put on a great event with such short notice but I agreed and immediately became grateful that not only did GLAMOUR trust me with it I was also being given the opportunity to give voice to that which I love. GREAT music and the holidays!! I was able to get Gaby Moreno
who just opened up for Ani DiFranco and Tracy Chapman to grace us with her BEAUTIFUL voice! Her singing is truly effortless! Then I got The Makepeace Brothers!
I am in love with their music and undeniable talent! All topped off by Eric aka SMOOTHE
agreeing to Co Host with me.
This lead to me having immense gratitude for the opportunity to celebrate the holidays with my friends in a very fun way courtesy of GLAMOUR and Canon even if I already have my acting career, producing duties, UNICEF duties, and gratitude birthday dinner to tend to. As mother Teresa says, "I know God doesn't give me anything I can't handle I just wish he didn't trust me so much!" ;-) So for this and my current UNICEF duties I am grateful!
I am in the middle of securing talent for our UNICEF fundraiser and I have no idea how this will unfold. I am the head of the fundraiser but there are five of us who have to agree on line up and the UNICEF headquarters in NY has to do background checks and approve the talent. I am going after one particular person as headliner because they have shown me in many ways that their beliefs actually line up with UNICEF's and for me that is HUGE! I don't want anyone who thinks it would look good for their image or for publicity purposes. I want someone who is being the change they wish to see in the world. Jason is doing just that and I'd be honored if he agreed. I haven't given up hope because if life has taught me one thing it's that MIRACLES ARE BORN OF FAITH AND THE POSSIBILITIES ARE ENDLESS! I can't control how this will unfold but I can sure as heck try, by doing the footwork, to ensure a human being of value, integrity, and talent is attached and that is in the end what I am fighting for as I try to attach Jason. So for the ability to do so, as tiring as it can get, I am GRATEFUL! The venue is coming along very well and I think when headquarters arrives in LA Monday to tour everything with us they will be pleased to see how much we have accomplished since our training in NY never forgetting that what we are fighting for are the children and the UNICEF Tap Project!
As you can see I have a lot to be grateful for! The life I get to live truly is beautiful but I have a hand in doing so by being able to accept that without seeing the beauty in the challenges and being grateful for them I wouldn't be here today. The other day I received this in my Daily God affirmation, "On this day, God wants you to know that today you have a cause for celebration. Today, you should celebrate what an unbelievable life you have had so far: the accomplishments, the many blessings, and, yes, even the hardships because they have served to make you stronger. Just as a gem cannot be polished without friction, nor can a life be perfected without trials. Take a time to acknowledge your life and to praise yourself." Amen to that.
I don't want to keep you here forever so I will part with expressing Gratitude for those who sometimes feel it the least, my family. It has been said that we hurt those we love the most. I think the hurt has been felt on both sides. One conclusion I have come to is that neither they or I are wrong in wanting what we want. I want to be me and be loved unconditionally while I make my own choices, live my own life, and learn my lessons that ultimately shape me and build my character. Some of my family wants me to be in less pain, and have their idea of a life well lived. Like I said neither one of us is wrong we just want different things. I struggle because what I like the least in life is hurting others! Trust me I always try to avoid that at all costs and anyone who knows me knows that about me but when the cost of not hurting others is hurting me than I can't do it. So to my family I say I mean no disrespect I am just honoring myself and being me! If you for one second think I am not grateful for you think again! Mom thank you for putting me in ballet at such a young age and helping me build my passion for the arts. To my brothers and sisters thank you for being you! In return you have shown me I have the right to be me! To my step dad thank you for putting up with my mom and her SEVEN kids! WOW! And lastly to my real dad wherever you are thanks for being a huge part of why I came into existence. You know I am grateful for your paths crossing for that gave way to Mercedes and I coming into existence! If you look at life through God's eyes and with LOVE I am sure you too will have lots to be grateful for.
Meet the people I am honored to call family and now go hug yours and tell them you love them. Mine is in Monterrey, Mexico baptizing the latest addition to our ever expanding clan and for missing it I am so bummed but for Joaquin's existence I am so grateful! I have my own celebrating to do soon, my 33rd birthday gratitude dinner with my Los Angeles family is Sunday and for them I am ETERNALLY grateful!
All seven kids in order from oldest to youngest.
With my sister and parents back home in Austin.
This is too funny! Like father like daughter. I sit just like my step dad!
Once upon a time we were great together and for that I am grateful!!
"Gratitude is not only the greatest of virtues, but the parent of all the others." Cicero HAPPY GRATITUDE DAY and may this day lead by example and to being in gratitude year round!
I woke up in Gratitude not only because of the day it is but because it is the way I have come to live my life. About almost four years ago all the work I had done in therapy became organic and that meant awareness became a part of my life. From that moment on I have lived in gratitude for everything with awareness. Not that I didn't have gratitude before but I hadn't truly learned how to be grateful for the challenges. The other day I posted on my facebook a thought I woke up with that morning, "Adriana Garza woke up thinking about how every challenge brings me closer to my friends and family and allows me to grow in LOVE. So for every road block or detour I say thank you for it has brought me closer to you!" That pretty much sums up how I view life these days.
I could sit here and go on on about everything on my plate and how hard things can be or I can adapt an attitude of gratitude, which I do only because organically I have come to see how beautiful each moment in life is and what it brings me usually outweighs the challenge. Gratitude my friends can not be faked. It comes from truly understanding what a gift it is to have been able to wake this morning take a breath and head over here to share Thanksgiving with you even if its through cyberspace. One of the things I am incredibly grateful for and I never thought I would be.
I used to think technology was distancing people. I mean with my friends growing more and more comfortable with texting and emailing I was beginning to be saddened by the fact that they used that as their main form of communication. What happened to getting together for face to face time? I got over that as soon as my play hit the road in 2007 and we used the internet as our main tool of promotion. I can not tell you how many AMAZING beautiful people I met because of it. People like Jen Marie and Darice who are my friends until this day. Most recently I met Eric Schwartz and Jason Mraz because of the internet. Because of Jason's kindness I went on to meet Sarah, Kim, Rosie, Michelle, Leah, Andi, Danielle, and many other beautiful souls. Let's not forget the amazing journey that was born because of the internet, The Experimental Witch
. I have come to see what a huge advantage it is to be able to log on and connect to someone on the other side of the world. It is also how I met my friend Maggie in London and how I am able to keep in touch with my beautiful friend Silke in Germany. So today I am very grateful for the internet!
My list of gratitude is endless! I am grateful for my breath, my sight, my legs, existence, love, compassion, the challenges, the fun times, this computer even if it keeps giving me problems, ;-) my life, my car, my friends, my family, my lovers past and present. Well actually present would currently only consist of Juan who makes appearances with me in my we are what we do videos. Meet him here!
I really could go on forever! However today I will focus on the present moment. Right now I am being given the opportunity to LIVE some serious and fun journeys. I am grateful for both. GLAMOUR has asked me to host The GLAMOUR Magazine Canon Ball Holiday Party
in LA. They contacted me Monday wanting me to put it all together by December 4th. By Monday evening I had one musical act and a venue. By Tuesday I had another musical act and then Eric agreed to co host with me! It all came together pretty quickly. I felt a bit of pressure to put on a great event with such short notice but I agreed and immediately became grateful that not only did GLAMOUR trust me with it I was also being given the opportunity to give voice to that which I love. GREAT music and the holidays!! I was able to get Gaby Moreno
who just opened up for Ani DiFranco and Tracy Chapman to grace us with her BEAUTIFUL voice! Her singing is truly effortless! Then I got The Makepeace Brothers!
I am in love with their music and undeniable talent! All topped off by Eric aka SMOOTHE
agreeing to Co Host with me.
This lead to me having immense gratitude for the opportunity to celebrate the holidays with my friends in a very fun way courtesy of GLAMOUR and Canon even if I already have my acting career, producing duties, UNICEF duties, and gratitude birthday dinner to tend to. As mother Teresa says, "I know God doesn't give me anything I can't handle I just wish he didn't trust me so much!" ;-) So for this and my current UNICEF duties I am grateful!
I am in the middle of securing talent for our UNICEF fundraiser and I have no idea how this will unfold. I am the head of the fundraiser but there are five of us who have to agree on line up and the UNICEF headquarters in NY has to do background checks and approve the talent. I am going after one particular person as headliner because they have shown me in many ways that their beliefs actually line up with UNICEF's and for me that is HUGE! I don't want anyone who thinks it would look good for their image or for publicity purposes. I want someone who is being the change they wish to see in the world. Jason is doing just that and I'd be honored if he agreed. I haven't given up hope because if life has taught me one thing it's that MIRACLES ARE BORN OF FAITH AND THE POSSIBILITIES ARE ENDLESS! I can't control how this will unfold but I can sure as heck try, by doing the footwork, to ensure a human being of value, integrity, and talent is attached and that is in the end what I am fighting for as I try to attach Jason. So for the ability to do so, as tiring as it can get, I am GRATEFUL! The venue is coming along very well and I think when headquarters arrives in LA Monday to tour everything with us they will be pleased to see how much we have accomplished since our training in NY never forgetting that what we are fighting for are the children and the UNICEF Tap Project!
As you can see I have a lot to be grateful for! The life I get to live truly is beautiful but I have a hand in doing so by being able to accept that without seeing the beauty in the challenges and being grateful for them I wouldn't be here today. The other day I received this in my Daily God affirmation, "On this day, God wants you to know that today you have a cause for celebration. Today, you should celebrate what an unbelievable life you have had so far: the accomplishments, the many blessings, and, yes, even the hardships because they have served to make you stronger. Just as a gem cannot be polished without friction, nor can a life be perfected without trials. Take a time to acknowledge your life and to praise yourself." Amen to that.
I don't want to keep you here forever so I will part with expressing Gratitude for those who sometimes feel it the least, my family. It has been said that we hurt those we love the most. I think the hurt has been felt on both sides. One conclusion I have come to is that neither they or I are wrong in wanting what we want. I want to be me and be loved unconditionally while I make my own choices, live my own life, and learn my lessons that ultimately shape me and build my character. Some of my family wants me to be in less pain, and have their idea of a life well lived. Like I said neither one of us is wrong we just want different things. I struggle because what I like the least in life is hurting others! Trust me I always try to avoid that at all costs and anyone who knows me knows that about me but when the cost of not hurting others is hurting me than I can't do it. So to my family I say I mean no disrespect I am just honoring myself and being me! If you for one second think I am not grateful for you think again! Mom thank you for putting me in ballet at such a young age and helping me build my passion for the arts. To my brothers and sisters thank you for being you! In return you have shown me I have the right to be me! To my step dad thank you for putting up with my mom and her SEVEN kids! WOW! And lastly to my real dad wherever you are thanks for being a huge part of why I came into existence. You know I am grateful for your paths crossing for that gave way to Mercedes and I coming into existence! If you look at life through God's eyes and with LOVE I am sure you too will have lots to be grateful for.
Meet the people I am honored to call family and now go hug yours and tell them you love them. Mine is in Monterrey, Mexico baptizing the latest addition to our ever expanding clan and for missing it I am so bummed but for Joaquin's existence I am so grateful! I have my own celebrating to do soon, my 33rd birthday gratitude dinner with my Los Angeles family is Sunday and for them I am ETERNALLY grateful!
All seven kids in order from oldest to youngest.
With my sister and parents back home in Austin.
This is too funny! Like father like daughter. I sit just like my step dad!
Once upon a time we were great together and for that I am grateful!!
"Gratitude is not only the greatest of virtues, but the parent of all the others." Cicero HAPPY GRATITUDE DAY and may this day lead by example and to being in gratitude year round!
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