Girls just having fun!

I have a little sister through Big Brother Big Sister. When I tell people it is usually followed by some praise for me. Its hard to take it in because they have no idea how much she does for me too. This past weekend was the first time she was allowed to stay with me the entire weekend. Big Brother Big Sister's have a long list of rules I am happy to comply with and one of them did not make it possible for us to have a girls weekend until now. Here is SOME of what I learned this weekend. Teenage girls eat like they are a bottomless well, stay up until 1am, love a particular boy but are afraid to tell him, when gently guided will try to dance again and get over what anyone else in class thinks, have endless energy and make you feel so young, carefree and loving! When I hit my toes for a third time, same ones, Zoey said I think you need a hug. Can't wait to have my own kids! Here we are getting ready to head to salsa class. Like Big Sister like Little Sister. ;-)


Most of all she lets me be me and I hope that by mere example I allow her to be her and in the end we are girls just having fun, living in the moment, and learning from eachother. Take a look. You can watch a full screen version by scrolling over the right lower portion of the video screen and clicking on the square screen. Something I learned from watching Zoey this weekend. ;-) If you are interested in applying to be a big brother or sister go to http://www.bbbs.org
. I have to say I was inspired by my friend Jerry who let me hang out with him and his little brother Alvin YEARS ago! Thanks for the great example Jerry! I miss you!!



Last but not least after our wild night of dancing in my living room we went to my class. She struggled and was really hard on herself but with some loving guidance we got her dancing again. My teacher and I pretended it was going to be just us and then...well you'll see.

We are what we do challenge! Join me!

A few days ago I was waiting for my friend Bev in one of my favorite LA neighborhoods, Topanga Canyon, and I discovered a jewel of a store, Kingfisher Road. As I left to meet Bev for lunch I saw a book in the display window and its title caught my attention so I knew I'd be back. I did come back and as I was leaving a second time I turned to Bev and told her I had to go get this book. I couldn't believe I almost left without it. When I showed her the book, Change the world for ten bucks: small actions times lots of people equal big change, she wanted it too.

Sadly the store was out so I told her I would blog about each action weekly and she could join in by reading and following along. The concept is that there are fifty small actions you can do in the book that make a big impact in your community on our environment. As I drove home I thought why not document me and my friend Shari, also a person passionate about doing anything we can to help eachother and our mother..nature, doing these actions and challenge our friends and anyone willing through the internet to join us. We are simply advocates of a very well thought out movement. You can read up more on the movement at http://www.wearewhatwedo.org/


So here we are asking you to join us and see what taking one small action a week can do for yourself and others. Watch the video below to find out this week's action. We will be getting out of my office and into the world and involving our friends in the actions. Please repost our video which can be found at http://www.youtube.com/adrianaferguson
and please visit http://www.wearewhatwedo.org/
for further information on the movement. This first week you could also win something related to the action so take a look at the video. With gratitude for your time! Adriana and Shari

Week 2 Action 2: Spend time with someone of a different generation. Join Adriana as she spends the weekend with her little sister from big brother big sister. To spend time with someone of a different generation outside of your family as a volunteer visit http://www.bbbs.org
or http://www.seniorsmiles.org
. Shari will be back next week for action 3.

Week 3 Action 3: Join us as we head to Target in search of energy saving light bulbs and go home to replace ones we shouldn't be using. ;-)

Inspiration

What inspires you? I've always thought that was such an interesting question. I love hearing people's answers and after yesterday's clean up event at the LA River I began to think about who and what inspires me. As I was looking around I realized how inspired I am by nature and how without my hike in the mornings I am just not the same. I was surrounded by nature at the beautiful Balboa Park and I realized in that moment how inspired I was by the generosity of every volunteer who got up early on Saturday morning and donated their time to clean up the river. I knew that from my group of friends, acquaintances, colleagues, etc. whoever was meant to be there would be there. So I was pleasantly surprised when I got a message early Saturday morning from Tracy saying she was coming with a co worker from Big Brother Big Sister. Here are some of the volunteers and then me with Tracy and Lucia getting ready to clean.

Me, Tracy and Lucia

Her phone call had made me very happy and seeing her there had inspired me to continue to send out my emails trying to recruit people to join the causes I volunteer for. Hey one person had gotten it and she had gotten another person to join her and that had inspired me to keep being the change I wished to see in the world because whoever needed to hear the message would. The clean up event was amazing and we accomplished alot. I accomplished the two don'ts. Don't fall in the river and don't pick up dead animals. OOPS!!! At this point, in the picture below, I had fallen three times and was just proud of myself for not giving up. I was trying to make it across to climb a tree and get some empty beer cartons out. FYI- Mission accomplished.

Anyway all weekend long I've been inspired and thinking about inspiration in general. So many things came to mind. First of all how magical the universe is and when we are ready it conspires with us to present situations we can learn from and moments we deserve to live. One recent situation was my ex boyfriend from Mexico City finding me on facebook. Back then I was a 17 year old aspiring actress studying at Televisa in Mexico City and he was in his prime as the main singer of a pop group called Agua Luna. Our relationship was short and rocky and when it ended it ended bad. I held no resentment but I held no amazing memories either. Not too long ago he found me on facebook and sent me an email after seeing my Unicef commercial. He mentioned it was good to see me and that we were on the same page in our beliefs. I went to his page and he was right. So many years had gone by we could see the beauty in each other, leave the past where it belongs, and congratulate the other for our accomplishments in taking care of mother nature and all of its inhabitants. He is now one of my many inspirations and a constant reminder that good is being done in the world no matter how many horrible negative images the media saturates us with. GOOD IS INDEED OUT THERE. Check Salvador out planting trees today in Mexico. I love that the internet allows me to see what he was up to today.

Now for my inspirations that have been with me all along on my journey in one way or other well that list would be endless. My mom for raising seven children alone, my real dad wherever he is for continuing to exist and keep up the fight in spite of the troubled life he has lead, my step dad for marrying my mom and taking on her seven children, my friend Bev for being one of the BEST listeners I know, My bestfriend in the world Sheri for being an amazing mom to her kids, Armando for being who he is and accepting himself just as he is, my brothers and sisters, all my friends, and well the list is truly endless. In the past year Zoey has come into my life through Big Brother Big Sister and she has inspired me to be me even more and in the process lead by example and allow her to be herself more, little by little everyday, just as she was created. Here I am with Sheri out and about in LA and the second picture is dinner with Bev. Last but not least Me and Zoey at the Grove last christmas.



But right now I keep thinking of people who are out there trying hard to live a conscious life acknowledging that every action we take affects the earth and humanity gravely and well one name comes to mind. Jason Mraz. Since I saw him on the Today show I researched him online, which led to his blog, which led to this blog you are reading now. He is so inspiring because he is using a very large platform and audience he was given to spread the message of LOVE and he is doing it quiet honestly and bravely not only in his work but in his blogs. They are some of the most beautiful, honest, aware words I have ever read and when I began to read them I felt less alone. Although deep down inside I know I am never truly alone sometimes being so sure of my beliefs makes me different, which I am more than happy to be, but can also make me feel alone. Through his work and blogs he took some of that away and inspired me to continue speaking out as well about that which I am passionate about, humanity. I think my work showcases that. So once again thank you!;-) But he's not the only one using his voice to create love and compassion. Check this out.


Last night after I came home from a long day which included cleaning up the river something really amazing happened that was definitely God and the universe communicating with me through Desiree and boy was I inspired. It is human to think that sometimes all my efforts fall on death ears. Although I know that is truly not the case sometimes I let my mind go there. Is anyone listening? Does anyone care and while I was thinking that I received the following email from Desiree who I have caught up with recently on facebook and who I went to junior high and high school with. This is some of what she wrote, "I am always looking forward to the things you post on here. Compassion is infectious and you are making a difference."

I wanted to share this because I have to say the sentiment goes right back to her. Another confirmation that whoever needs to get what I post will get it and I appreciate her taking the time to look over my posts about non-profits. What she does by looking means more than she knows. Although I did email her back and tell her. So inspiration its infectious. I never forgot a quote I read once, "Surround yourself with people who uplift you." I definitely make a point of doing that because in the end I know that everything we are being sold to believe matters doesn't really matter. It may be tried but it's true when your journey has come to completion and your existence on earth has come to seize no one is going to remember what you drove or what outfits you wore but what they will never forget is how you treated them. "Fame is a vapor, popularity an accident, riches take wings, only one thing endures and that is CHARACTER." Horace Greeley. May your character allow you to live a life full of compassion, kindness and love not just for others but for yourself and in the process may your example inspire others to do the same. All this is leading to something and you will find out soon what because after all we are what we do.

Coincidence? I think not!

If you are reading this I suggest you grab a cup of chamomile or drink of your preference, sit down, and relax because it's going to be a long one. Some days like today I struggle to let myself be human. I am very open about the fact that I have spent four years in therapy and the only reason you may not know this is because you haven't seen one of my four monologues in The Art of Being. I am open about it because a lot of the times people depict only their success and happiness but not the road and challenges that led them to be who they are. The everyday moments and exactly what it entails to be human or as I see it a soul having a human experience.

Today started off as a good day laughing whole heartily with Shari but I chose to let it bring me down. I say chose because I am fully aware that what I can not control is what happens in life but what I can control is how I handle it. There's also the struggle to let myself go with my emotions some days and feel what I feel. Like I am doing so today. Today I am allowing myself to be disappointed in people. I am because even though I truly believe an expectation is a premeditated resentment and only hurts the person who has it, I was human and had them.

I whole heartily believe that in order for us to continue to evolve as a human race we need each other badly! I don't believe in this rat race society has created. I am saddened by the thought that what you want you can only have by taking others down. That competitive mentality that what someone else has you need to have too and even a better version of it only for you. Don't even get me started on how upsetting I think the marketing to our society is. I feel we live in a world that says the more you have the better and more worthy you are. I find that to be the opposite of what my journey has allowed me to see as my truth. I know first hand that when I share my journey and experiences with others I end up more satisfied than when I get a new outfit. Seriously!! Let's just hope the staff at Glamour isn't reading this. KIDDING! They know this about me because it is my essence.

Ah essence. I am choosing to be disappointed today because I want people's essence to be what I what them to be and not what they are and therefore I am wanting them to be more of something. Giving in this case, more giving. Anyone who knows me knows how I give in life and I won't tell you what I do since I like for most of it to stay between me, God, and the universe unless I have to recruit people for it. I will tell you that if you TRULY want to be the change you wish to see in the world you can go here, http://www.volunteermatch.org/ to find your perfect match.

Anyway I am helping coordinate a clean up the LA River event here in Los Angeles. I mass emailed people, posted about it on facebook, and was coordinating with another non-profit I volunteer for to get some of their volunteers there to help out. Needless to say the response was next to none. Three people from the non-profit responded with a No. My friends have barely responded and no one on facebook responded. I am NOT saying that everyone has to do good in this life but what I am saying is it'd be nice if people put "beliefs" into actions. I am finding that more often than not people stay the intention so today I have kept reminding myself to look at those who are doing. Coca Cola who is putting the event on, the foundation behind the event, and others like me who I will meet Saturday.

But since I am human I have been juggling between the feelings of sadness and gratitude all day. As I was feeling overwhelmed I thought I wish I could talk to Jennifer because I know she would get it. I have all kinds of friends, AMAZING friends but I only have one soul sister. Someone who sees the beauty in the world and miracle and privilege that it is to be its inhabitants. Well sure enough as I was thinking that the phone rang and it was Jennifer. All I could think of was thank you God and universe!! I answered and she wasn't there. I thought okay her phone "accidentally" dialed me so I called back to let her know. I told her what happened and how I was feeling and then I had exactly what I needed to have. A conversation that was a reminder that there are other people in the world who genuinely care for the planet, universe, and the well being of others even strangers. Here I am with Jennifer and her daughters the evening of The Art of Being in Chicago.


The universe prompted the call and that prompted me to remember to be grateful for what is and not what I wish was. To be grateful that she came to see the play in Chicago when I took it there and that we became fast friends and most of that I have someone in this gigantic universe, where I feel like a who (Horton hears a who), that shares in the same beliefs and values the gift of life even with its challenges. This is call was no coincidence but a reassurance that what I choose to believe in (God and the universe) if I allow them to always hold my best interest at heart.

So just for today I was allowing expectations to take over but most of all I was reminded that I am HUMAN and being a soul living a human experience entails that I feel what it is to be in existence. Most of all I was reminded to trust that those who are meant to be at the event Saturday will be there! Those whose journey is leading them and they are open to being guided will be guided there but most of all I know that everything is at it should be. After all one of my favorite quotes says, "Whether or not it is clear to you no doubt the universe is unfolding just as it should." So I am letting go and letting God because quite frankly not letting go and being dragged isn't truly what I want. Never underestimate, "A small group of thoughtful people could change the world. Indeed, it's the only thing that ever has." Margaret Mead

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Judgement

It's official. I am addicted to blogging. Many factors could be the reasons. One could be that I am certain my friends may have grown tired of hearing my beliefs voiced anytime I get a chance. However I think it's more because I hope that even if only one person reads this that it will inspire them to be themselves and follow their heart and then I will be certain I have done what I came to do. I recall like it was yesterday what I heard when I was getting ready to do The Art of Being for the first time and two of my commercials were on hold, one eventually went on to air, "do what you love the money will follow", so I listened to my heart and followed its advice. Mostly because I was ready. Everything I had endured had led to this moment and I was finally aware. So if someone reads this and is ready and just looking for a sign of confirmation so they can move forward and I happened to be it then yes I have absolutely done my job in the universe.

I started thinking about my first monologue I ever did in The Art of Being titled Judgement because of facebook. Yes facebook. Thanks to that magical site I have reconnected with people from junior high who I haven't seen in seventeen or so years. I love looking at their pictures and seeing how a very high percentage are married with kids and living very happy lives. Some email me and tell me how happy they are to see me living my dream and will go on to recall some story about a play I did, a pageant I won(hey I grew up in Texas), or something that reminds them of the passion I had for my art even then. Thanks mom! She passed on her passion for dance and theater to me and I am eternally grateful to her for that or I wouldn't be able to write this today. Well I would be able to but not about this experience.

You see in junior high I was popular by default. What I mean is I was popular because I was Mercedes' sister. It was not her fault. When we are that young we go with what we are shown and if what we shown is an enviroment where things only have one way of being and you don't fit that way then your basically an outcast. I was one but I was also the sister of a cheerleader so I was popular by default. I was made very aware in more than one ocassion that I wasn't pretty enough. I never forgot the comment Johnny made while I was just standing waiting to go to class, "stop sticking your chest out you'll never be your sister." Mind you I was just standing there and till this day I don't match my sister in that department but I am quite happy with what I have. ;-) WORDS!! Ah words can be so impactful and at that age we are too young to get what I strongly believe today. People see the world as they are not as it is, so his comment truly had nothing to do with me. He probably never imagined that when I think of him all I can really recall is that scenario.

Junior high wasn't horrible but it wasn't great. I just pretty much got by but then I was what I still am now. A sponge. I observed and took in everything and here is what I learned. When you don't fit the standards of society you have to fight harder to be seen but for me it turned out to be an opportunity to grow in so many other ways. I took up reading, theater arts class, and devoured my dance classes. I went on to be on the dance team in high school and was the lead reindeer in the Christmas performance. A pretty dorky thing for high school but I was honored.

So for me being an outcast turned out be a blessing. A preparation of sorts for what lied ahead in Hollywood. So how did facebook prompt all these memories? Well Teanna, who I admired deeply in junior high for having the courage to be the only female football player at the time, tagged me in some pictures from junior high. See below. I had my own style thing going on hence the tie.



WOW was my first thought but as I looked closer I realized how drastically my perspective has changed. I may not have been the prettiest girl in school by societies' standards but I was certainly not as ugly as I allowed life to make me feel. I wish I had known then I had a choice to not buy into what I was told about myself and that I created my own reality but I didn't because I was still learning the lesson. A lesson which led me to The Art of Being. I was tired of how judgmental everyone is and how most of the time people aren't aware of how harsh we are to one another and the impact words have. They can scar someone for life.

What saddened me the most was that people where living life according to the rules of what I considered to be a very superficial society. One that values following along and strips you bare of your God given birth right, individuality. So between memories of the past and ten years of Hollywood defining for me what I was when it came to my ethnic background I grew tired. So much that I almost walked away from it all but instead of doing that I gave my career one final shot. At that time The Art of Being was strictly for the Los Angeles community. My intent was to bridge the gap of loneliness within humanity through art and show all that it entails to be human in hopes of having the audience leave feeling less alone. I did this by casting ten very diverse people of all backgrounds ranging from age to religion to sexual preference and allowing them to express themselves and their choices in a monologue onstage. Ten people onstage simply and beautifully being.



So it leads me to this. Life has shown me that it's up to us what we choose to give value to. It really is. So if you ever find yourself judging someone based on their looks stop to think about that thought and if it truly has anything to with you or if it's just about what society has sold us as truth because afterall the truth is subjective so you can define your own idea of beauty. With that in mind I leave you with my monologue from the first ever Art of Being performance and with the three Adriana's that live in me and will always be a part of me. The one who felt unseen as a teenager, the one that came to embrace her dorkiness and see it as an attribute, and the one who was recognized for recognizing the beauty in others. Thank you God and Universe for my journey and thank you Jason Mraz for your LONG HONEST blogs but most of all for being YOU. I came to this site to read your blogs and you inspired me to write my own for when it came to length I saw that I had met my match. Although this one probably outdoes yours. ;-)



JUDGEMENT by Adriana Garza Cortazar from 2006 The Art of Being performance

So what are you thinking right now? Let me guess. You’re thinking she’s hot, I’d do her and you may be thinking, she’s okay, she’s not that pretty, did you see how big her ass is? Whatever it is your thinking it’s a judgement based on how you see the world. It’s all in how we perceive things. The great thing about perception is that it’s a choice. Unfortunately though for all of us we’re handed these standards of society and worse we buy into them. So me I’m probably not who think.

That’s me growing up. I know. One day my sister is saying to me Adriana why bother looking in the mirror you are still as ugly as you were yesterday and the next I’m being crowned Miss Teen Spokesmodel. How it all happened? Well that’s been my journey.

Just like a lot of you I was taught that my worth was based on my looks. So I set out to be worthy. Although I was quick to learn that the kind of worth I yearned for wasn’t going to be given to me this way but I choose to try it anyway. So pageants became my choice. Prior to winning a pageant and “coming into the world” I pretty much lived an existence in the shadow of my sister.

I tried out for the cheerleading squad because I could hold my leg all the way to the top of my head, fall into the splits, get up right back up and cheer my little heart out. She tried out cause it would add to her coolness factor. She made it.

Then there was David Gonzales. I dreamt of going to the prom with him. Keyword dreamt. She wasn’t in his grade, didn’t really know him but went with him because she could. Now don’t get me wrong it wasn’t her fault, she was handed the exact same standards I was and the only difference was that she fit them.

What I get now is that the choices I was making where of a girl so afraid of not being seen that she became the very thing she feared the most. A continuation of my mom, my sister and society standards. That sash and fake painted on “it’s all okay” smile only made matters worse because it was so far from who I was. It has been a long treacherous road back to my being. Filled with years of therapy and the acceptance that there are some things I am just not going to understand.

What I do understand is that what meets the eye is not always what is. You see these heels and this dress can help me sell you the illusion of beauty but that’s all it is an illusion. True beauty, the kind that transcends time and leaves something behind when we are gone comes from inside. And no, that’s not something parents tell their ugly kids to help them get by.

It’s my truth because I’ve lived both sides of the coin. So the thoughts of that girl whose own sister took the one guy she liked to the prom because God knows there wasn’t another 299 boys in the school, or the girl who somehow got it instilled in her that her father leaving never to be heard from again was somehow her fault, that girl, she’s is my constant struggle. (no matter what things look like on the outside)

So the next time you want casually walk up to me and ask me if I’m perhaps a gold digger or if I can ever leave the house without blow drying my hair or you want to condemn me because I am where I am based solely on my looks and you’ve had to work hard and life isn’t fair, think about this. None of us, not one of us chooses what we come into this world looking like but what we do choose is how we let it affect us.

The skin no matter what it looks like to anyone, it just veils the soul. Behind every face is a human being just yearning to be loved for who they are, seen for who they are. And in this town where turning older is a curse, I think Dickinson was right when she said, “we turn not older with years but new everyday.”

So getting so lost it forced me to find myself was exactly where I was supposed to be because it gave birth to my own becoming.

Unicef, one of my many passions

First I didn't know what I was doing on here and now I can't stop thinking about putting my passions out into the world. The Art of Being woke up me to the world of endless possibilities as endless as the universe and ever since then I have been living amazing moments. Moments that make me realize how magical life is and if you follow what I call the signs you are guided to amazing experiences. Sounds easy but identifying the signs means trusting yourself and surrendering control. In my experience that has not been easy but the flow of life once I do that is easy and leads to moments like the one below.


This year I was granted the gift of shooting a commercial for Unicef. I played the mom and got to be a part of a commercial that for the first time in all my years in the industry actually lined up with my beliefs. HUGE BLESSING! What happens when you follow your passion is truly a gift from God or whatever you believe in. ;-) Afterall we ended up at Cannes being one of ten finalist in the fundraising category for the Cannes Lions Award from over 4000 International entries. When I shot the commercial in February all I could think of was thank you Universe for letting me live this moment. So anything that follows like Cannes is icing on the cake. Why? Because I have been a donor/supporter for years so this was beyond what I ever expected to get in return. The ability to back that which I truly believe in! Although the commercial only airs in March during Unicef's Tap Project World Water Week you can still support the cause by going to http://www.tapproject.org/


A few months before this I had another monumental experience that consisted of the Universe conspiring with me and it brought me to Paulo Coelho. I'll save that story for my next blog but let's just say my ex boyfriend breaking up with me because my beliefs worried him turned out to be a blessing!!! It led to my next project and eventually meeting Coelho. The story is worth writing. It was actually part of my current monologue for The Art of Being when we performed here in Los Angeles in May. All I have to say is what can sometimes seem like a very hard thing to walk through is actually an opportunity to grow through something and allow yourself to live your way into something more magical that what you were choosing to be in. It's just that sometimes when you don't make the choice to make a change you know you need to do, well the Universe helps you along and for the help it gave me by prompting my ex to break up with me I am beyond grateful!

The art of being me

Honestly I am not one hundred percent sure why I am doing this. All I really wanted to do was ask someone a question on their blog and I ended up with a blog. So I figure maybe this is meant to be as you see I think everything is meant to be. If you are open and have awareness life really creates some beautiful moments for us to live. So when I went to name my blog I thought of my first beautiful moment. I should say my first beautiful moment in complete awareness. What I mean is the first time I realized life was communicating with me and guiding me. It's a long story and since I am still trying to figure out what I am doing here other than just wanting to ask a question on someone's blog I'll go into the explanation some other time.

But as usual that first beautiful moment brought me here to this very moment today. My play The Art of Being was the first thing that came from me! Before that I was living life according to Hollywood's terms but after ten years of doing that, repeating a pattern, I said enough! I decided to do things on my terms acknowledging that deep down inside that the last thing I cared about was what others or myself looked like on the outside. The thing Hollywood is obssessed with. I've always thought of us as souls and The Art of Being would give me the opportunity to not only voice my belief but back something I truly believed in. Afterall which one of us ever got to choose what we look like? Just saying.

So here I am today feeling the need to write this. No I don't look like my profile picture but she's a huge part of me. Always will be and I am thankful I met her. What I mean is I am glad I was treated like an outsider and a dork who didn't even have her own name in junior high. I was simply Merecedes' sister. Thanks to that I grew in character. I learned what was truly important in life and because of that time in my life and many other moments I learned to simply be me. I learned that individuality is a gift we all possess and can choose to honor but I also learned that society does not honor individuality. They are threatened by it. Afterall what would they sell if we all listened to ourselves and trusted ourselves?

So how do I stay alfoat in the town of superficiality and cristicism where every conversation is about what size someone is or how their work could be better and nothing is ever enough? I have come understand that when someone says something is not enough they feel they are not enough and therefore it's a projection. I also cling on to my understanding of God for dear life, trust myself, follow the signs sent to me by the universe and trust that I can be me in my industry and succeed. As I did with The Art of Being. I won't go into details about the award I won for creating the play but I will tell you that when I did life showed me in the most amazing of ways that following your heart and your passion leads you to creating a path all your own, one filled with moments you never thought possible where the so called impossible becomes your reality. So if anyone by chance, although I don't believe in chance, should be reading this all I have to say is follow your passion, do what you love, and leave the rest up to whatever you believe in and you will live a life that exceeds the one you dreamt for I am living proof that Gods gifts puts our dreams to shame. This is what I believe. This is the art of being me.